Setting my Sails

November 9, 2011 at 11:51 pm (Ruminations.)

The game started spontaneously, which I guess is the best way for anything to start. I was surprised at how the hours and hours I spent playing hacky sack back in high school seemed to be paying off as we kicked the soccer ball around the circle in an impromtu game of ‘keep up’. Our goal was to reach ten, and with lots of comedy, shenanigans, and laughs we just kept counting and counting…

It started with 5 or 6 of us but the group grew and shrank as time went on, the numbers of smiling faces changing every few minutes. People would come in and out of the circle, and I have to marvel at how each beautiful face belonged to someone who was dear to me, but who I had only known for a short time. But some of these faces I felt closer to than people I have known for years. It was one of those experiences where the spirit of the moment was so intense that it almost came as a surprise when I realized the only ‘spirit’ was the holy spirit, no other ‘spirits’ involved.

It started to sink in how *good* God is to me. How God continues to show himself to me through this body of Christ, the body that I am a part of and that I love. The body where I am loved. How this existence is safe, and it is probably the safest I’ve felt in… awhile.

As I sink into this realization, into the reality of the spirit and its glorious presence in my life, I ponder the concept of ‘dwelling deeply’ in Christ.

In the ocean of faith, the belief in Christ, the more deeply we dwell, the further our roots go down, the further away we are from the storm, from the elements and from the waves. I think about sinking into the spirit, into this reality of the blessings that have come to fruition in my life. The interesting thing is that the deeper I sink into Christ and the blessings this life has given me, it brings me further and further away from the world, and for the relationships that exist in the worldly perspective… it hurts.

So which way is God going to have me set my sails now? That’s the question of the hour, and it will be interesting to see what the answer is. I’m trying to figure out how I can navigate above water, in the middle of the storm that apparently just keeps on coming, while still having my anchor dropped securely in the love of Christ.

How to weather the storm of the pain that keeps coming my way, while keeping my roots secure and deep.

One thing I know for sure is that even though I don’t deserve this beauty that has been placed in my life, it is here and it is evidence of God’s blessings.

21 Do not be afraid, land of Judah; be glad and rejoice. Surely the LORD has done great things!  22 Do not be afraid, you wild animals, for the pastures in the wilderness are becoming green. The trees are bearing their fruit; the fig tree and the vine yield their riches. 23 Be glad, people of Zion, rejoice in the LORD your God, for he has given you the autumn rains because he is faithful. He sends you abundant showers, both autumn and spring rains, as before. 24 The threshing floors will be filled with grain; the vats will overflow with new wine and oil.

25 “I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten— the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm— my great army that I sent among you. 26 You will have plenty to eat, until you are full, and you will praise the name of the LORD your God, who has worked wonders for you; never again will my people be shamed.  27 Then you will know that I am in Israel, that I am the LORD your God, and that there is no other; never again will my people be shamed. (Joel 2:21-27)

I’m pretty sure God is repaying the years the locusts have eaten.

And it’s pretty cool.

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