Fight for Truth

March 1, 2012 at 11:48 pm (Ruminations.)

The truth is….

I am a very wounded person. The scars run very deep.

The truth is it takes very little to trigger me.

The truth is…. I’ve spent most of my life running and making bad decisions.

The truth is I have no idea what I’m doing, and a lot of the time I am scared out of my mind.

The truth is – I have been told – not many people know that. But I feel like its obvious.

It is true that I lack motivation sometimes, and I forget. Apparently I have the mind of an artist and when that part of my mind isn’t fed my brain starts telling stories to itself.

The truth is that I don’t know what to do with myself most of the time, and I don’t know how to process what’s happening half the time.

The truth is that I live in an amazing house with an amazing garden. I live with some very amazing people.

The truth is I don’t understand what I’m supposed to be doing here.

The truth is I’m fighting demons and wrestling habits, and that sometimes I think the fight will never end.

The truth is.

I’m tired.

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